Let's Discuss Our Addiction. My Story.

I started with porn at a early age. I ran across on old magazine in the woods near my house, and while most of it had been ruined, there were a few pages that made it. They were of a bride and bridesmaid fingering each other and eating pussy. That moment changed me. It was then that porn got its first hooks into me. My grandfather had Hustler and Playboys hidden in his house that I would find and jack off to.

Once I got a little older, and we had access to the internet, things really picked up. So much porn became available, and I just kept digging and finding more and more to feed what was now a growing addiction. It was also the time many addicts discover. Straight porn was no longer quite enough. I began seeing and being turned on by Trans porn. Those beautiful bodies, amazing tits, and their hard cocks. Soon after, gay porn. So many choices and so much to see.

At about 16, I was finally able to live out my gay fantasies with a much older neighbor who took me under his wing while I spent summer days mowing his lawn. He taught me how to suck his cock and eventually get fucked. I thank my early experience with porn to allow me the curiosity and the will to cross that line. The point of no return, as it were.

Now, with everything in my life, porn is my true purpose. Submitting to my addiction. Finding as much porn as I can, gooning and edging. Watching hypno vids and gooning collections and everything else. So many fetishs. Every free moment thinking about the next chance to watch porn and jerk off. I remember those magazine pages from so long ago and thank them for where they've taken me. From an innocent kid to one being broken into gay sex, and into a full blown addict. It's amazing.


Tell me about you! How did your addiction begin and grow. How good is it now? Did it overpower you to make fantasies into reality? I'd love to have people share with me and others.
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MrIrishNudist 7 months ago
Started off finding my dad's Playboy and Penthouse magazines,  progressed to buying my own magazines and dvds at 17, and developed from there when the internet came into being. I had a couple of guy friends that fucked my ass and I still enjoy anal. My cock was the first my female cousin sucked. The first woman I had sex with was twice my age. If it wasn't for porn, I'd probably have not explored my sexual interests,  both good and bad, over the years. Downside of porn for me has been setting expectations for how I should perform.  That comparison has been quite a dark shadow over my life.
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analist66 10 months ago
When I was 14 I bought cheap soft core magazines and started jerking my dick. With 16 I had my first sex ... with my boyfriend. He found his fathers hardcore magazines .. .wow .. we've seen really great stuff incl. anal sex and facials :wink: We pulled off our clothes and started jerking each other. I was sooo nasty that I started an intense blowjob. Finally he shoot a great load in my mouth. I swallowed all. Since then I'm totally addicted in cum. 

But I also love women and all the female advantages :smile: I love her curves, tits, pussies, asses :wink: 

Later on I bought tons of hardcore magazines, DVD's and sex toys. Even when I was in a relationship with a woman - and I still am today - I took (and take) every opportunity to jerk off and watch porn. I confess: I am addicted to porn!!!
I love the internet and the multitude of websites to look at horny pictures and stream videos.

I have had other experiences with men, but I am most attracted to beautiful women. My dream and a goal is to fuck a tranny soon! Today I take the opportunities as they arise... either with a wet cunt or a hard, big cock!
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High-levelRiddle0 8 months ago
3 tries to share and kicked every time. she was 38 and 29yrs older than i. she sexually raised me with some help with her Bata machine porn tapes.... Yeah good old Bata machines  !!! loved this woman. 5'5 110ish lbs covered in freckles frizzy curly hair and a 100% true redhead !!! love sharing my now 47 years of sexual beginnings tell now at 55 
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zzmikey 1 year ago
One day in school, I decided I wasn't having any fun being good.  I started hanging out with the "bad boys" and pretty soon we were looking at porn.  I began meeting my neighbor boy regularly to play doctor, and soon I was jagging him off regularly.  He tried to reciprocate but it hurt too much.  I closed my eyes and he began licking and sucking my dick, and trying to stick his fingers up my ass.  The rest is history.....
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Tammi4U 27 days ago
I have always had a preoccupation with nudity and genitalia.  As a boy I would expose myself ..just pull down my pants.  No idea why and nothing ever happened, I would just do it sometimes.  I remember hushed gatherings in someone’s basement as we when through National Geographic to see black womens breasts.  Somebody found some black and white pix from a nudist colony and I remember hiding them in my “safe” in my room.  Then the Playboys in my parents bathroom but it was Penthouse forum that hooked me. Once I was working and on the road I would spot the book stores in various towns and plan a visit to buy porn.  I Always had a stash hidden from my wife. I was a twice a day kind of guy but my wife was a twice a year kinda girl once we had little ones.  But the internet changed everything.. anything you want..any time you want.  You just have to do your own work.  Down the slippery slope the…heteronto swingers / swaps to bbc and cucking..to trans / sissy ending at gay sub / daddy fucks porn.  It is an addiction..but it’s my sex life now.
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redclay56 28 days ago
to TheRadar78 : I didn't actually  start masturbating until a few years later, but I was hooked. I would see these little ads secreted away in the back pages of The Cleveland Plain Dealer for burlesque shows, with these grainy, awful-looking photos of strippers, and think: that's for me. When I grow up, I gotta check that out".
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TheRadar78 Publisher 28 days ago
to redclay56 : That's a great memory! That first time really does stick with you. I had a couple of calendars too, but unfortunately none had that sheet function. That's awesome!
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redclay56 28 days ago
I was a latchkey k*d, and would usually have 3-4 hours of unsupervised time when I got home fmost afternoons.  Usually I'd watch  cartoons on TV or hang out around the neighborhood, but sometimes I'd go up in the attic of our rented house and poke around in the piles of junk my mom had stored up there. My dad, who had not been a part of our family for years, had left behind several boxes of personal effects that I found endlessly fascinating; Mickey Spillane books and old magazines like "Argosy" or "Man's Life". These magazines  mostly featured short stories of harrowing manly adventures, articles of military operations gone haywire, and some grainy black & white cheesecake pictorials. This was the early 1960s, so it was suggestive stuff, not even remotely explicit, but it got my attention. There would be a bewhiskered and strapping male figure either fighting off a school of piranhas, or protecting a hysterical buxom dame from giant tarantulas with a chain-saw. And as an aside: all these illustrations were rendered BY HAND; there were no computer graphics in the the 1950s, when these things were  made. One afternoon while snopping through my dad's things, I hit paydirt in the form of a glossy calendar from 1959. Each month featured a different woman in a swimsuit, posed in a studio setting. The girls all seemed full of good cheer and brimming with vitality; they glowed with health, confidence, and Kodachrome color. These weren't Vogue models, they were all-American Betty Huttton-esque type girls, with corn-fed creamy skin, dimpled cheeks and deep cleavage. Almost by accident, I discovered that each photo had a cover sheet of a transparent film, probably mylar, and when you lifted that sheet, the models' clothing went with it. Bingo...Oh sweet mystery of life at last I've found you! My little-bitty dick went from idle to lift-off from Cape Canaveral in a billionth of a second. Good God-almighty I was hard.  I've been trying to recapture that feeling ever since...
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fuckfr 1 month ago
I started when i was 18 at my girlfriends house i introduced myself to internet pornography, when she was at work I was sitting in front of the computer jerking... I discovered that you can do it for hours! with my first own internet connection i went wild. I was surfing the good old thumbnail galleries, remember those? I was jerking all night long! My cock often swollen and all slippery with all the precum i was leaking and it smelled so good! then i started collecting porn, needed more! When I did my exams I was up all night jerking my aching cock. Later sometimes i skipped work for an hour just to jerk off at home... I just love porn!
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Furrychub 3 months ago
I was young, about 11 when I found the brief case my dad hid his porn magazines in. I was turned on and curious and kept coming back to them. Eventually he changed where he hid them. There few times at sleepovers with buddies late night on the tv finding ads for call lines or softcore channels. Wasn't long though maybe when 13 I switched to using the internet to find porn. Seeing porn ads, and searching images of tits, naked people, big dicks etc, before finding some site with videos. Had to be careful as it was shared computer and I learned a lot about how to clear out virus's lol.

Was always curious about cocks, and watched a lot of bj porn at first before searching for pics of dicks that lead to more hardcore gay porn clips and I started getting hooked. Found outdoor and cruising clips very hot and that eventually led me to a cruising/hook up site. I found it when I was 16 but was nervous to risk trying it until I was 18. After chatting for a bit with guy few years older and ended up meeting him late at night by park beside my HS, and had first experience with a guy both sucking each other. Was the start of another addiction.
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firstandlast10
Growing up I would come across a porn magazine now and a gain. Then years later I would keep a hidden porn vhs around. But once free porn on the internet came around, things really kicked into high gear. I went from straight and lesbian porn to bi and gay porn. One day I was super horny and decided to call in sick at work and went to a ABS with glory hole booths and sucked my first cock. Also had my cock sucked for the first time that day. That was 2011. Nowadays I'm in a sexless marriage and only have sex with men, and I have gay porn to thank for helping me down this road. And interestingly enough, watching lesbian porn makes me really horny to have gay sex. Not sure why. Maybe whatever's good for the goose? I dunno. But I sure like sucking cock, swallowing cum, and having my ass fucked by a hard cock.
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hrdguy01
hrdguy01 4 months ago
Wow mine was pretty much the same  but my neighbor found his dad's and showed it to me i found my brothers and showed it to him which led us going from jacking one at a time in a room to what ever to same room under a blanket to just jacking together freely and the chance for more and more stimulation with different kinds of porn led us to exploring some more.. that summer was one I'd never forget and I'm in that road in no return 
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LatinCockk 4 months ago
to analist66 : Similar to me in many ways!
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LatinCockk 4 months ago
to redclay56 : Damn.
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wearimus 5 months ago
Very similar for me. I too found a playboy in the woods at a young age. I was with a friend and he kept the magazine but I kept the centerfold.  From that moment it was constant masturbation. Then in high school a friend of mines older brother had some hard core magazines with cum shots.  From there I’ve been addicted to all porn but loved the cum. All my favorites on here have delicious cum being enjoyed. 
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Chaz352 6 months ago
mmmm....great post!! i've come to embrace my addiction(s). the more open-minded i've become, the more pleasure i experience (74 y/o). ~chaz in ny
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renegadebob2 6 months ago
I wonder.how many of us sucked our first cocknat 11. I did. I was living in the Philippines and same cab driver took me to and from school. I saw his bulge and asked to see. He pulled it out and i started sucking without his prompting. I loved it! He loaned me to other cabbies snd i kept sucking. At 13 one of them fucked me and.i LoVED it
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TheRadar78 Publisher 7 months ago
to MrIrishNudist : That's a very common path towards porn worsip. I think for many of us, that is similar. I remember my first visit to the adult book store near me. I was a nervous wreck, but surrounded by so much. I got over the nervousness fast, and was there buying magazines, tapes, and then DVDs often. My gay experience posts sum up my first real introduction to full blown sex. And yeah, expectations based on porn can be difficult to overlook, but it is something to get past. Sometimes even to make your times with porn stronger.
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redclay56 8 months ago
Well...I just dashed off what I considered to be a pretty engaging recounting of my introduction to pornography, and it appears the  pearl-clutching algorythmic maiden aunts at Xhamster found it a bit much. Rats.
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TheRadar78 Publisher 8 months ago
to phalluster : That's a good way to get things started!
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TheRadar78 Publisher 8 months ago
to High-levelRiddle0 : Something has been up with comments for a while, thanks for the share!
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tristar31
tristar31 8 months ago
Sounds like the story of my life
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Kryfos 9 months ago
I was eleven when I sucked my first cock. Hooked instantly! Hungry for cock and thirsty for cum!!!
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phalluster 9 months ago
My interest in gay porn and cock began when I had my cock sucked at a gloryhole, at around 14. It was my first sexual experience so left a strong impression. I've lived a mostly hetero life but with maturity it has become clear to me that my main erotic interest is man to man oral. This is what I love to edge and goon to, and I love it. 
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SelfPleasure2
SelfPleasure2 9 months ago
Interesting!  I found a someone’s playboy stash in a wooded area behind our house.  I nervously look edged through all them with excitement.  Soon afterwards I was peeping through my neighbors window.  That was the first time I saw real tits.  Great memories ☺️
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krushone 11 months ago
Love finding porn in the woods. Me too. Then vhs tapes then dvds now internet. BBC is what its lead me to. 
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ctmarriedman 12 months ago
I started young, junior high. I found my Dads Playboy. Then I found a bag of really raunchy magazines on the side of the road. I couldn’t wait to get home from school and jerk off to them. That’s what started me on my porn path. 
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SancheZ069
SancheZ069 1 year ago
hot story :smile:
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wildbill5622 1 year ago
I found some porn in the woods too when I was 13. Fairly mild, had a woman with 3 tits. I brought it home and started jacking off to it. Also loved those Beeline porn stories. Then my dad told me that mom found my porn stash and burned it! He didn't beat or punish me though. I never became gay. I find gay porn and gay men disgusting. Trans porn is interesting though. 
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francisco123123 1 year ago
Wao, myhistory too
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